Made me cry Mel. I don’t think I ever told you but when you were in Barts I went to the entrance one night and stood outside too. There were other people there, looking up at the windows starting through the glass doors. Probably all there for someone. Covid was an absolute fucker, four days only with strangers at that time, I can’t imagine it. I love your substack. Love to you and to Sarah x
I'm crying... tears and joy for the love of your loving co-pilot and you. Your incredible writing purveys the joyful moments amongst the trauma, fear and sorrow. Thank you for helping us sense your world of cancernauts. Love you both very much xx
Thank you Mel. So loving and beautiful. My most favorite poem. My husband read it to me often during my worst moments of initial treatment and stem cell transplant. His love, gentleness and compassion was everything.
Oh Mel ... I am feeling into your words so deeply ... So much to say but it can wait ... for now just L O V E and the realisation that M and i got married on World Cancer Day ... greatest loves is something so so precious that we share xXx
What a beautiful testimony to the power of love and care in the face of great suffering. Thank you for giving us a window into what it looks and feels like.
A window for some and a mirror for others. Cancer is an unimaginable beast. The tribe, the crew it helps so so much. Those I have met in the real and virtual world. Thank you. Truly. 💛💛
My co-pilot is called Elan. I will show this to her since I could never put anything remotely like this together, but you’ve nailed it, so I hope you won’t mind me sharing it.
Love to you and fond(ish) memories of RML in Cuckoo Mel, love Sarah xx
Share it with whomever my darling. We need to talk about this business. Am sending you a mountain of love and hugs. So many fond and silly memories. ❤️💛🧡🩷💙
Awww Mel, I've absorbed all your beautiful words and am now reduced to mush. From the cold covid isolation to the warmth, organs attached - lungs to strong beats of your hearts...thank you. What a life-full, wonderful love letter. (I had to skim a few scary bits - not exactly nostalgic memories)
I'm glad you managed to get the surgery. Mum had hers just before lockdown, and we know that some people on the ward were delayed.
We also have a lot of love-tea and rotate heart-coloured mugs. xoxo
Lovely Mels. I started to read this and just knew I had to sit down properly to give it my full attention so I have waited for half term. This beautiful piece of writing took my breath away. The love just shines through, word after word. How wonderful that Sarah has this written testament to your deep, enduring bond. I was once a cancer co pilot and it is love that carries us all through. Keep on twinkling. Sending loads of love to you and Sarah xxx
Love yes always. It sustains. I have just read Richard E Grant’s book about his wife’s cancer and death. And the love between them and for them eased the passage. Not that I am going anywhere yet! Sending love to you dearest Jilly. I see you as a fabulous co-pilot.
Your beautiful writing brings me to tears. May you and Sarah have a peaceful, joyous, and loving Valentine's Day. Earlier this morning I posted e e cummings' "In Just-" poem to Facebook, looking forward to Spring. Thank you for including one of his poems in your post. xoxo
Mel, your cancer journey is becoming more compelling, engaging, heart-warming by the month. Thanks for taking us with you. We are feeling all the love from you and to you. It's been such a hellish journey - and yet - so many amazing off-shoots. Respect to your number 1 carer, the warrior Sarah. Rock on!
Another beautiful, touching piece from the pen of the master. Your deep love and affection for one another brings me tears today.
Mel and Sarah you are loved.
Made me cry Mel. I don’t think I ever told you but when you were in Barts I went to the entrance one night and stood outside too. There were other people there, looking up at the windows starting through the glass doors. Probably all there for someone. Covid was an absolute fucker, four days only with strangers at that time, I can’t imagine it. I love your substack. Love to you and to Sarah x
Thank you PP. 💛It was a disaster movie of insane proportions. I can see you there. I am so very glad. For all the inmates. Sarah… ooofff. 🧡🧡🙏🏽
I'm crying... tears and joy for the love of your loving co-pilot and you. Your incredible writing purveys the joyful moments amongst the trauma, fear and sorrow. Thank you for helping us sense your world of cancernauts. Love you both very much xx
We love you my lovely friend. So much. We all need a co-pilot. 🩷🩷
So grateful to call you and your co-pilot friends. You are both such resilient, beautiful people. Keep dancing!
P.s. Tea made with love is my favorite kind of tea too!
Tea made with love is the only kind! 🫖 🤍✨
This was so powerful. “Annihilated by shock” is exactly right. I am so sorry for your trauma, but grateful you have Sarah.
Thank you Kristina. Committing the truth to words helps. ✨🤍
Thank you Mel. So loving and beautiful. My most favorite poem. My husband read it to me often during my worst moments of initial treatment and stem cell transplant. His love, gentleness and compassion was everything.
Hari, it says it so eloquently and simply. To be in someone’s heart. Such gratitude to them. 🧡🧡
Oh Mel ... I am feeling into your words so deeply ... So much to say but it can wait ... for now just L O V E and the realisation that M and i got married on World Cancer Day ... greatest loves is something so so precious that we share xXx
Thank you precious healing friend. I felt you throughout . In so many ways.
It’s your wedding anniversary to a top fella! ❤️🧡💛🩷🤍🩵
What a beautiful testimony to the power of love and care in the face of great suffering. Thank you for giving us a window into what it looks and feels like.
A window for some and a mirror for others. Cancer is an unimaginable beast. The tribe, the crew it helps so so much. Those I have met in the real and virtual world. Thank you. Truly. 💛💛
Another stunning piece.
My co-pilot is called Elan. I will show this to her since I could never put anything remotely like this together, but you’ve nailed it, so I hope you won’t mind me sharing it.
Love to you and fond(ish) memories of RML in Cuckoo Mel, love Sarah xx
Share it with whomever my darling. We need to talk about this business. Am sending you a mountain of love and hugs. So many fond and silly memories. ❤️💛🧡🩷💙
Tears fall rarely from my eyes these days. I am immune. But not to this.
Your heart-rending words, and your shared love with Sarah, make me weep.
Gratitude and love to, and for, you two, your family, and your tribe ❤️❤️
My love. There is sorrow. And love. Thank goodness for all of us keeping all of each other going. 🧡
Awww Mel, I've absorbed all your beautiful words and am now reduced to mush. From the cold covid isolation to the warmth, organs attached - lungs to strong beats of your hearts...thank you. What a life-full, wonderful love letter. (I had to skim a few scary bits - not exactly nostalgic memories)
I'm glad you managed to get the surgery. Mum had hers just before lockdown, and we know that some people on the ward were delayed.
We also have a lot of love-tea and rotate heart-coloured mugs. xoxo
Ah Victoria, the experiences are so vivid and hidden simultaneously. Tea, always tea.
Sending you strength and love. ❤️
So beautifully written and so poignant. I'm so grateful for your Sarah. I have a co-pilot as well and they are priceless.
The co-pilots bring the joy and magic. Sending love ❤️
Lovely Mels. I started to read this and just knew I had to sit down properly to give it my full attention so I have waited for half term. This beautiful piece of writing took my breath away. The love just shines through, word after word. How wonderful that Sarah has this written testament to your deep, enduring bond. I was once a cancer co pilot and it is love that carries us all through. Keep on twinkling. Sending loads of love to you and Sarah xxx
Love yes always. It sustains. I have just read Richard E Grant’s book about his wife’s cancer and death. And the love between them and for them eased the passage. Not that I am going anywhere yet! Sending love to you dearest Jilly. I see you as a fabulous co-pilot.
Love love love ❤️
Your beautiful writing brings me to tears. May you and Sarah have a peaceful, joyous, and loving Valentine's Day. Earlier this morning I posted e e cummings' "In Just-" poem to Facebook, looking forward to Spring. Thank you for including one of his poems in your post. xoxo
I am moved it touched you Susan. And thank you for the kind words.
Happy Valentine’s Day! ❤️❤️❤️
Mel, your cancer journey is becoming more compelling, engaging, heart-warming by the month. Thanks for taking us with you. We are feeling all the love from you and to you. It's been such a hellish journey - and yet - so many amazing off-shoots. Respect to your number 1 carer, the warrior Sarah. Rock on!
The patience of an actual modern day saint… I am peut-etre a demanding and loving wifelette. We feel you honey. We feel you with us. 🩷
Really made me cry this one
Sarah 🧡🧡
Sarah yes. Angel at my side! 🤍🤍